but i can't stay mad at you for anything.

oh what is this seriously i don't know either. no matter how much i try to be mad at you,  to not talk to you, i always fall for you again and again. you didn't even try though. i mean, not in that kind of "try" but, urgh, whatever. Oh and also i realize i can't stand being "far" from you. seeing you, but not talking to you and avoiding you seems like a torture for me.


"Get close enough to have fun but don’t get attached enough to get hurt" they say. at first i was pretty cool with it. but......


Dear You.


sorry for lack of quality post. in the middle of lots and lots school examinations & college prep. wish me a very good luck!

"So, tell me Darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?" "All the time, All the time"

So yeah, what's up blog? I've been so busy with my days and my ups & downs love life. Hard to describe. We're together, but we're not together. See what i mean? Yes i don't get it either.

Oh, and remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night?  I'm You're the one who makes you me laugh, when you know you're  i'm about to cry. I You know your my favorite songs, and you tell me about your dreams, think i know where you belong.

Difficult, lovely, and heartbreaking. But somehow i'm still enjoying it.
Dear You.

Teenage Dream

OHAI bloggers. it's been like forever? I KNOW RIGHT? so, what is it going on with you?
i can't believe it is december already! woohoo the most wonderful month of the year, CHRISTMAS! and i just finished my exam this monday, hope im doing well at the report card.

now, for the big news. *drum rolls*

HARRY SHUM Jr REPLIED MY TWIT

Gosh, i love twitter ♥

i was in the middle of the sick feeling to study and then, i received a text from my friend Vanessa "Damn Han, tweet lu di bales Harry Shum" and then i was like, OMAGA. yes i did jumping & dancing around also :)

anyway this is my soundtracks lately 

 

They're all good, i've missed a lot of episodes though.

I'm planning to DVD-shop & watch Rapunzel Tangled Tale soon when my siblings finished their exam, but idk if it still showing at the cinema by that time.

that's all for now folks, write again when i write again.

Toodles!

PS i Loathe you

 

so sick ;/ - Ne yo

 Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you 

(CHORUS)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

(BRIDGE)
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her his smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

enough said.

PS i love you

Alice in Wonderland XD

good day fellas :)
have you seen "Alice in Wonderland"?
If you haven't, get your ass off to the cinema now!
It's effin awesome :) i just watched it yesterday with my besties.
Alice in Wonderland was my favorite book when i was kid. around 6-7 years old maybe.
so sad, i don't know where are those books now :(
one is "story & pictures" and the another one is "you choose the ending".
I wonder where are those books now. LOL.
i used to read it, and after im done, i just threw it away hahaha.

me, and Andira went to the mall first, to save the seats.
and you know what? we got the J seat. the 3rd seats from the front.
WTH? and then we both hang around like crazy.
nessa came later because she has school.

done we watched the movie, we hang around again. (I miss my gurrliess so much)
and we did a lil shoots at icon life's photo booth :)

there are still lotsa pics :) i edited & combined this one.

we saw hottie there haha.
and after the shoots are printed, i serioiusly need to get a new hair cut. my bangs are long enuf, even it is covering my eyes!


we tried some shoes @ debenhams :)


around 8 pm, nessa andira went home. lucky my family were oin the mall too.
i begged my mum for a new shampoo.first she didnt let me to, but finally my mum let me buy it! YAY!
Its L'oreal Paris Ultra rich. for a messed up hair like mine.
hope it has a good quality, just like the price. LOL


and then me and my family had dinner at GK, it was almost mid nite, and the restaurant was getting ready to closed.


and then we went home :)


i washed my hair with the new shampoo, and i cut my bangs. by my self.


thats all.
i'll update a post as often as i could bloggers.


thanks for reading :)

PS I loathe You

Widy Nichlany Soediro <3 role models :D

youuuuu guys know her?

she's FANTASTIC! AMAZING! FABULOUS! im obsessed with her.
haha vokalisnya band bernama VIERRA!
emang sih kalo di tv suka lipsync, but you know? SUARANYA ITU BAGUS!

i've ever saw them live! and it was GREAT! dan tiap mereka show off air, gue langsung buka youtube atau fb buat cari videonya!

GRAWWWRRR!
pas intro (opening sebelum masuk lagu), dia ngescream dulu. and its so awesome!
jarang ada cewe yang jago scream! ya ga guys?
jujur gue suka takut kalo cowo ngescream. tapi kalo kidiw mah beda :)

and whatever she's wearing, she's always damn beautiful and fashionable!
haha. thats why i choose her for my rolemodel!
She has a microphone tattoo on her hand. again, its GORGEOUS! 
Well, lemme show you some pics :)  

 

 with manager

Photoshoots 

stage

stage

shoot

 

promnight

on a pensi i think.

 

sing guys!

from dengarkan curhatku v-clip

her tattoo

she rocks

taken long time ago

not-so-girly. not-so-boyish-either.

 

fabulous.

so how was it?

damn gorgeous right? 

i still have LOTS of her pics. alone, with vierra, or with her friends, and absolutely with her awesome clothes! but im not gonna post em all.

hihihi 

Widy Soediro Nichlany 'vierra'

tanktop+blazer. t-shirt (with grafity and such).

hotpants. skinny jeans. miniskirt. legging

necklace, usually the oversized one.

MJ's hat.

bangles.

flats. sneakers. barely heels.

PS i love you

christmas :)

hello buhloggers,
miss me?
haha

christmas time is near! wohooo.
dirumah juga udah siap pohon natal.
tapi, ada yang beda tahun ini :)
jadiiiii gue, anak-anak remaja & naposo bulung, ngerayain natal bareng anak-anak jalanan!

 hari minggu, jam 10an kita cao ke kali jodo, ada yang naik truk tronton, ada yang naik mobil pribadi.
nah gue ikut yang tronton. seruuu! selama dijalan ketawa terus.
yang cewe-cewe pada duduk, dan cowo-cowonya berdiri. 
udah gitu ga berhenti ngebanyol lagi. ngakak nonstop pokonya.


puas ketawa-ketawa, sampe, terus makan siang sebentar.
trus kita ke kolong jembatan gitu. grawwwrrrrr agak miris juga ngeliat mereka.
dibagi-bagiin topi santa, terus kita kebaktian kecil-kecilan, nyanyi2 lagu skola minggu.
selesai kebaktian, kita main games, bagi-bagi bingkisan, dan lain-lain.
teriknya siang gak kerasa! 

 

sekitar jam 5an, kita salam-salaman, trus beres-beres. satu persatu mereka juga pulang.

eh tapi mereka nyamperin kita lagi satu-satu, trus salam bilang "makasih ya kak!" awwwwww!

tersentuh banget gue! huhu. jadi ngerasa gimanaaa gitu. harusnya selama ini tu gue bersyukur. kalo ngeliat mereka aja yang tetep semangat begitu, masa gue kalah?

dalem hati gue berdoa supaya mereka selalu Tuhan lindungi, supaya hidup mereka Tuhan jamin. :)

habis itu pulang lagi, naik tronton lagi.

again, KETAWA-KETIWI. haha apalagi cowo-cowonya ngebanyol terus.

badan keringetan,rambut acak-acakan,kaki berlumpur,muka merah, TERBAYAR semuanya.

and i also got a big lesson that day.

THANK GOD, FOR EVERYTHING. <3

Pics: taken from kakak naposo's facebook album.

in loveeee with P-Man

LOL yeahhh maybe its just another crush, but still.

i dont care he has gf olredy, or he's still single.

all i know he's so cute and nice and talented n science guy and have i mentioned cute?

i want to tell ya more about him but im afraid that my school mates will read n they will be known about him.

huhu

and this is a song for him :)

HE COULD BE THE ONE

Miley Cyrus

smooth talkin,so rockin
he's got everythin that a girls wantin
guitar cutie he plays it groovy
and i can't keep myself from doin somethin stupid

think i'm really fallin for his smile
get butterfiles when says my name
he's got somethin special[x2]
and when he's lookin at me 

i wanna get all sentimental
he's got somethin special [x2]
i can hardly breathe something
telling me [x2]

maybe he could be the one
he could be the one
he could be the one oh,oh,oh
he could be the one [x2]
he could be the one oh,oh,oh

he's lightning sparks are flyin
eveywhere i go he's always on my mind and
i'm goin crazy about him lately
and i can't help myself from now
my heart is racin think i'm really diggin on his vibe

he really blows me away
he's got somethin special [x2]
and when he's lookin at me
i wanna get all sentimental

he's got somethin special [x2]
i can hardly breathe something
telling me [x2]
maybe he could be the one he
he could be the one [x5]

and he's got away
of makin me feel
like everything i do is
perfectly fine the stars are aligned 

when i'm with him
and that's all into him
he's got somethin special [x2]
and when he's lookin at me

i wanna get all sentimental
he's got somethin special [x2]
i can hardly breathe something
telling me [x2]

maybe he could be the one
he could be the one [x6]